catch a falling....

snowflake!

or maybe just sticking her tongue out at me!!!

how many more years of this???...

This is what Math homework looks like in our house!

family tradition....

Today was the day I planned to head out with Steve and the girls to look for the perfect Christmas tree. The weather had other ideas for the day...a nice covering of fluffy wet snow! But we were not daunted. Freezing temperatures and a little snow were not going to mess with our family tradition.

So we bundled up~~~some of us matching better than others~~~ and headed out to Sleepy Hollow Tree Farm.
There were snowball fights....fatherly ambushes...
and lots of laughter!
After the snowballs stopped flying, the tree hunting began!

Emma found her 'perfect' tree...
but we decided to leave it and let it grow a little bit more before we took it home...

and we chose this one instead!
and as tradition has it, Steve grabbed a handsaw and began cutting into the tree trunk. After a few minutes, the tree was still standing and Steve was worn out. So, rather than spend the next 30 minutes trying to saw through the trunk, he wimped out and called Troy over~~within seconds the chainsaw cut through the trunk and the tree came down.

Soon, the snow will be melted and the branches dry, and we can transform this huge evergreen into our family Christmas tree.

on the eve of thanksgiving eve ....

Today was a extremely long day for me. I woke up at 4:30am and left the house at 5:10. I made it to work with a few minutes to spare. 12 hours later I walked out of the Humana building, exhausted and worn out! The 4 block walk to the parking lot was endless and the drive home felt like it would never end. Walking through the front door, sitting in the big comfy couch, and talking to the girls (and Steve) was all I wanted to do.

But my family had other plans for me!!! As I opened the door, I was welcomed by the smells of dinner cooking. Turkey, dressing, mashed potatoes, and green bean casserole had all been prepared by Steve and the girls this afternoon. What a great 'Welcome Home.'

Now Steve is on his way to work, Mac is cleaning the kitchen, Emma is taking a shower, and I am sitting with my feet propped up...counting my blessings!

we just replaced an ugly brass and glass fixture,
the new one definitely needs to be raised

I am so thankful for my family!

moving...

I cannot believe I forgot to post about Emma's award from school! I always remember to write about the embarrassing things, and yet forgot to take the time to brag on my little girl when I had the chance! Bad, bad Mommy!

Each month at Locust Grove, children are honored during announcements and presented a certificate at an assembly for accomplishments in various categories. Two weeks ago Emma Shea was honored for her poem about moving. She was declared the 'winner' for the 2nd grade writing category. YAY EMMA!!!!

**Below is the poem she wrote completely by herself. Ms. V told me that Emma would pull it out every day for several weeks and add to it; trying to incorporate the literary devices they had worked on in class. She began the assignment the week after we moved away from Northern Kentucky. For weeks, she begged and begged to move back to our old house. This poem reflects the heart break she was feeling being separated from 'what she knew' and the acceptance of her new situation.

MOVING

Shattering in my tears
When we went to the new house.

The new house was cold and dark
Like the woods
Thinking on the floor
that we could never be sadder.

Why did we have to go
My backyard is big
I'm missing my old school
I'm missing my friends.

Liking my new house now
Liking my new school now
Liking my new backyard now
Liking my new room now.

friday frivolity....

Having not worked a full~time job in over 7 years..

I had forgotten how important week~ends were.

It didn't take long to remember the relief...

that a clock striking 4:30 on a Friday can bring.

And the dread surrounding setting the alarm on Sunday night!

Retirement...Sweet Retirement.
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Well from what they keep saying at H....., this is my last week end of freedom.

Annual enrollment for Medicare started on the 15th...

and therefore, mandatory overtime has begun....

and over the next 2 months, I will be seeing more of my co-workers than my family!

I have already said my good byes and asked them to please not forget me...

or replace me with a better model.
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Last week I asked Steve if he wanted to hire someone to paint Mac's room...

of course, since he loves painting so much, it took him a half of a millisecond to say yes!

Steve, the painter, came and primed the lovely paneling tonight...

and he has just left.

he will be back tomorrow to paint the Teal Zeal onto the walls...

but Steve doesn't know what time!

Um...it is my last Saturday of not working for weeks...

I do not want to see the morning hours.

I sure hope that doorbell doesn't ring at 8:00.

Because I would hate to have to wake up...

errr....well roll over...

to nudge Steve out of bed.
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Not too much has happened this week...

work for Steve and I...

school for the girls.

Next week looks like more of the same.

with a trip to Alabama to break up the monotony...

and of course the IRON BOWL on Friday!

I wonder if we will cheer for the Tide with 5/6th of the Hunters

or with the blue and orange with the rebellious 1/6th of the family:)

Shhh...we will be cheering for the Crimson Tide ...

because we need a place to stay while we are there!
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I am off to bed...

sleep has been calling me for a while...

and I think I am going to answer him now!

Sweet Dreams!
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girls stripping...

wallpaper... girls stripping WALLPAPER!

you didn't think I would actually have a post about strippers did you???!!!

The house we are 'trying out' to see if we want to buy in the future was built in the late 80s. It is a good house, but it is really stuck in a time warp. There are things that MUST be changed if I am going to live here~~~even if we decide not to buy it.

Exposure to U.G.L.Y. has to be limited.

Exhibit #1:

This hideous mauve and green wallpaper covers the walls of the master bathroom...and even the walk-in closet! A decorator's failure I do believe.

What made the concept even more of an eyesore ... the mauve blinds in the bathroom bay window and the matching curtains left in the master bedroom.

PURRRRRTTTTTTYYYYY!!!!

Thankfully, these beautiful girls spent their Sunday afternoon stripping the U.G.L.Y off of the walls.

And they had a great time...

except for the 'smelling like vinegar' part!!

I am just tickled pink mauve that my bathroom has taken a step closer to this century!!

fashionista...

Last week we surprised Emma with a trampoline.

Late afternoon on Saturday, we hooked up the trailer and headed out to pick it up from Ms. Robin's yard.

A few hours later we arrived home (because we had to stop and eat at OG before picking it up). Although it was pitch black outside, the girls wanted to set it up. So we found the perfect spot and while the girls came in to bundle up (because it was almost 50 and 'freezing'), Steve began unloading the pieces.

Emma could not find the winter hat she was looking for, but she found her scarf so I wrapped her up in it. About the same time I offered her a chef's hat to wear (because it is a little too big and would cover her ears), she found a sun hat and put it on her head. Real purty!!!

When she saw the chef's hat, she looked at me appalled!
"MOM!!! I can't wear that. That would look silly!"Oh, and this doesn't??!!
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parenting--part 2...

A few months ago, Michaela was told by a young man that I "make all of her decisions for her" and that I "control her." Of course my first reaction was to laugh and to think that if I truly did control her and make her decisions I would certainly have a lot less to worry about. And if I was a "puppet master" for my children, parenting would definitely be so much easier! But the comment made me look at myself as a parent and consider my role in my children's lives.

My conclusion...parenting is hard...sometimes I hate it...and I question my decisions often.

But I also realized that raising happy, well balanced children requires being successful...in two concepts that are complete polar opposites of one another.

First, as parents, we make decisions for our children. We teach and we discipline so that we can instill family values, ground our children in faith, and create stability and security in their lives. We spend years creating a home that represents safety. Family is where we teach our children to seek comfort. We spend years making choices that will ground our children in an assurance of their worth and value. Our unconditional love is the basis for forming strong roots.

Then, as soon as the roots have taken hold, we take a step back and we begin preening their wings so that they can take flight and begin a life separate from us. And letting go is the hardest thing I have ever had to do.

Taking a step (or 20) back and allowing Michaela to make her own choices, her own mistakes 'hurts my heart'. Often I (choose to) forget that she is a young adult and that she has to make her own choices, whether I agree with them or not. I want to alleviate the hurt and heartache that are inevitable as she matures and makes more of her own life choices. I want to keep her in the safety of my heart so that she does not look back on her life and say, "If only I had/hadn't.....". I want to continue strengthening the roots because that is simpler---for me. But I know that controlling all of Mac's choices is not what is best for her. I realize that one day (all too soon), she will drive away and begin creating her own home. So, as her parent, I must continue to guide her and make choices for her~~that is my responsibility~~but I also must remember to step back and allow her to make more of her own decisions~~~and to be there to support her... in the joy or in the sorrow of her choices.

Boy!!! Letting go is heartwrenching.

Success as a parent comes when we recognize that the roots we have been nurturing are stable and that we realize when it is time to step back and do what is necessary to strengthen the wings. We must know that if we have done our best, although they have flown away, their roots are strong and well grounded within our hearts and homes.

Man, why didn't anyone tell us parenting was so hard!!!

parenting....

I originally posted this in June, but due to 'life' I never finished the second part. So I am re-posting this and posting the 2nd part tomorrow.
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Over the last several months, I have had various conversations with friends about parenting. We have talked about the joys our children have brought us and also about what our lives would be like if we had not taken on the role of parent (more time, more money, less stress, less love). These conversations, along with comments recently made to Michaela, have had me thinking about myself as a parent~~~ a lot. And after much self evaluation, I have come to a conclusion.

Sometimes....I hate being a parent!

And while I do not enjoy the bickering and arguing or the attitude and disdain, the dislike does not stem from these behaviors. My feelings of disdain comes from the magnitude of responsibility that raising children entails! We, as parents, have been entrusted with the nurturing, educating, disciplining, and spiritual and emotional well~being of these little souls. We, as mommy and daddy, are responsible for forming their knowledge base and value system from infancy! We, as mom and dad, create the foundation for what they will make of themselves as the grow and mature!

And...the responsibility is frightening!

Doubt, second guessing, and regret often follow decisions. Discipline often ends with "What ifs." and "I shouldn't haves." We continually question "Am I being too strict?", "Am I pushing too hard?", or "Do I expect too much?" as we make choices or give encouragement. Our task as parents is daunting. The ramifications of our choices, whether good or bad, will shape and mold the character of our children for the rest of their lives.

And that...is overwhelming!

Several months ago, Michaela was told that I......

happy halloween...

upon the first day of the week...

¹ How long, O LORD ? Will you forget me forever?
How long will you hide your face from me?

² How long must I wrestle with my thoughts
and every day have sorrow in my heart?
How long will my enemy triumph over me?

³ Look on me and answer, O LORD my God.
Give light to my eyes, or I will sleep in death;

⁴ my enemy will say, "I have overcome him,"
and my foes will rejoice when I fall.

⁵ But I trust in your unfailing love;
my heart rejoices in your salvation.

⁶ I will sing to the LORD,
for he has been good to me.

Psalm 13

fun filled family fridaysaturday

Today we all slept in until after 10AM...It was GLORIOUS! Then we rushed around and headed out the door to drive up to Florence. With the sun shining and clear blue skies, we enjoyed an afternoon at the Ferguson family farm. We explored the farm by hayride, we hid from one another in the 5 acre corn maze, and we looked for pumpkins in the pumpkin patch. After petting the animals and taking a pony ride (Emma) we hurried over to a presentation of Chicken Little, starring Emma's friend Madeline as Ducky Lucky. After many hugs and congratulations, we said our goodbyes and headed to Mall road for Michaela's favorite thing (and the thing Emma and I detest the most)~~~~shopping. After several trips to the dressing rooms, we paid for the final selections and then headed to dinner at Don Pablos on the river to stuff ourselves with salsa and fajitas. (YUMMY)!!!Truly a great Fun-Filled Family Friday Saturday!

friday frivolity...

I just returned home from a night out with my husband.
He met me downtown after I got off of work...
and then we headed to Cardinal Cafe...
(yes that would be a Uof L establishment---Mac is appalled!).
After dinner we headed to Central Park...
where we began a Ghost Walk through historical Louisville.
We had a great time hearing the stories of some of Louisville's famous ghost...
and saw some great old Victorian houses!
What is the word for dinner and a night out without children...
Is it 'date'?
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On this walk I found the where I want to live!
A sweet area known as Floral Terrace.
The houses are mid sized Victorians...
with a sweet cobblestone sidewalk...
and beautiful courtyard front yards.
I think I could trade land for a house with character...
and a neighborhood with history.
Now to convince the family that a move into the city would be great!
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While Steve and I were out on our date, Michaela and Emma went to a Halloween party.
Food, friends, and a hayride...
and of course a bag full of candy!
No need to go trick or treating on Halloween now!
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The bus driver left Michaela yesterday morning...
Drove right past her without stopping!
Thankfully Steve was home and could drive her to school.
Of course when I found out, I called the bus garage to find out why.
I was polite!
I just wanted to see if there was a problem.
What I didn't realize was that when the individual I was speaking to put me on hold and contacted the bus driver...
her conversation broad casted over the radios to all the bus drivers.!
And even better...
some of the people on the buses also heard the dispatcher asking the bus driver if she had forgotten to pick someone up!
Michaela also became aware of this...
when various people asked if she had been left by her bus driver...
and if her mother had called in to ask about it.
She is really happy with me!
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I realize it is dark...
and there are no street lights or house lights at the end of our street...
but really...
Come on!!
Michaela has been standing at the end of the street for almost three months.
In the same spot...
At the same time...
Nearly every day.
Common sense should lead someone to stop and check!
The bus driver's explanation to Michaela later that day...
"It is really dark out there and I didn't see you...
You need to carry a flashlight and shine it so I know to stop."
and then she went on to say...
"And you need some pepper spray. It is really dark out there and I am afraid someone can get you while you stand and wait."
Yeah...that is something you should tell a young girl who stands on a dark country street corner at o'early in the morning by herself.
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Steve finished painting the dining room this afternoon...
he vacuumed while I read Emma a story tonight...
and he is now busy replacing the beautiful (i.e. ugly) light in the dining room...
I knew there was a reason I kept him around!
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The house we are living in was built in the late 80s...
and I am sure at the time the fixtures were 'in style'.
But a few decades have past...
and things that once looked good now belong in the garbage somewhere else.
Slowly...we are trying to bring the house out of the 80s and into this century.
Not quick enough for me!
If I never see brass and glass again...it will be too soon!
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I am still in training for my job.
It has been three weeks so far...
and I still have three more weeks to go.
I realize that handling Medicare is tricky...
and that accuracy is crucial...
but 6 weeks!!!
Really????
At least it is paid training!
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Tomorrow morning we are heading back up to Northern Kentucky.
We are going to grab some lunch...
do some shopping in stores I am familiar with...
visit a pumpkin patch and corn maze..
and see Emma's friend in a play.
And of course visit my drive-thru friends at Skyline Chili!
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It is going to drop into the 30s tonight!!!
I am going to go open some windows in the bedroom...
and put an extra blanket on the bed.
Great weather for sleeping under a bunch of quilts!
But I better go do it before Steve gets in there...
because he is a 'cold weather wimp"...
and freezes if it it is below 70 in the house.
Shhhhh!!! don't tell him the windows are open.

renea...this one is for you!

To my Alabamian friends....

I cannot believe...

It has been 3 weeks since I have posted!

Life is busy.

I have begun my new job which has created the need for an adjustment in the daily schedule and responsibilities. Steve has quit his 2nd job, but now gets to do all the taxi-ing and appointments. Today he got to experience driving up north for Mac's Ortho appointment, a shopping trip to Jo-Ann Fabrics for Emma's Halloween costume material, and a few other stops all before driving back down here, dropping the girls off, and leaving for work! Tomorrow he gets dance practice duty. Now if I can just get him to sew Emma's witch costume I would be good to go:)

As the responsibilities shift and we tweak the day to day stuff, we can give a sigh of relief as we live like a family again and finally find the "normal" that we have been missing for so long.

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not quite wordless wednesday...

Today was the day Emma had been dreading for weeks~~~the day she had to run ONE MILE for her fitness test at school. She has been running around the backyard to 'train' for it. She has been talking about it incessantly. She has been stressed about it because she 'isn't fast'.

Her Daddy and I have been reassuring her and reminding her that she ran over 2 miles in England with no problem. We were promptly told, "Yes, but that was sooo long ago." But the completion of the run is a state requirement and there was no escaping it.

So this afternoon, Steve woke up after 4hours of sleep and we headed to the school to cheer her on.

At 12:50, she was on her mark...ready to go!
Going strong at the end of her first lap...only 5 more to go to cross the finish line a 'winner'.By the 3rd lap she was ready for some motivation to finish...so along came her hero to help her along the way.
and 11minutes and some odd seconds later...she crossed the finish line!!!!

Not too shabby!

friday...

Just got home from our OCHS's football game against SOHS!!!!

Way to go Colonels~~~40-19.

Now it is off to bed!

upon the first day of the week...

For all have sinned, and come short of the glory of God;

being justified freely by his grace through the redemption that is in Christ Jesus:
whom God displayed publicly as a propitiation in His blood through faith.
Romans 3:24-25

friday frivolity...

We just returned from our Fun-Filled Family Friday...

and when I looked at the clock I was shocked to see that I have almost ran out of Friday!!

Shew!! Glad I got this posted before the clock struck midnight.

Because I am not sure Billy C. could go one more week without my wit and insight :)
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We have lived in Oldham County for only 2 weeks now...

and I have seen more people I know around town...

than I had the entire 10 years I lived in Northern Ky. ---COMBINED!

I think that must mean it is time to move somewhere where no one knows us.
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I was offered a job today...

It is a 6 month contract job with Humana...

an Enrollment Verification Specialist...

sounds glamorous doesn't it?

translated= someone who sits in front of a computer all day looking for discrepancies in enrollment forms!
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Steve is more excited that I got a job offer than I am I think...

because my gainful employment means his 2 week notice at the zone.

Ever since I told him I have seen joy and happiness in his eyes...

He almost skipped around the house :)

I think the anticipation of a good night's (day's)sleep has him giddy!
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We bought a tv last week...

and I signed up for Netflix again...

and the drama that is occurring in the Martin household is NOT just on the television!

Steve is in the other room laughing hysterically...

Emma is coming into my room every 2 minutes sighing and moaning...

the cause of these fits of emotions???

Why the British car show TOP GEAR of course.

I think I have concluded that "Is it over yet?" is just as annoying as "Are we there yet?"
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Michaela has an orthodontia appointment on Wednesday...

so we will be making the drive back up north...

and probably not a moment too soon!

I am pretty sure that Skyline's profits have taken a nosedive since I have moved away!
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Emma has not taken the move very well...

she keeps asking if we can please move back...

she wrote a poem in school about the move...

and she tells me daily, if not hourly, that she misses her friends and old school so much!

She even told us tonight that she could move in with Madeline and we could come visit her.

And let me tell you...there have been a few moments today that the idea has been VERY tempting :)
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I guess I had better hit publish before Friday becomes yesterday!

But I want to leave you with this picture taken this evening at Target of Michaela's choice for her Halloween costume...
because it has been awhile since I have embarrassed her...

...well on the blog anyway!!
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not quite wordless wednesday...

He came loaded with weed eater and pruning shears...

ready to conquer the jungle that had overtaken the front landscaping!
He cut...

He 'weed eated'...

He uncovered...

and what he found was enough holly bushes for a subdivision full of landscaping beds...

I think there was a buy 1, get 12 free sale!

a sweet wrought iron fence outlining a small courtyard area...

and hours and hours more weeding and planting to be done!!

...which will have to wait until the record 95* September weather passes!

slow and steady...

***I found my card reader in the strangest place....my camera bag!!! The thing about being organized is to remember that you are organized and look in the most logical place first!"***

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We are in the new house. And by 'in' I mean our stuff is EVERYWHERE...waiting to be put in it's proper place. Slowly, very slowly, it is feeling more like home. Along with organizing the inside, we have had to attend to the jungle that has taken over the landscaping around the house.

Yesterday...the front yard! Today...Cali's world got a little smaller.
and she has no clue that her wandering days are over!

so much for that organized move...

I cannot find my photo card reader to upload the pictures I took today :(

And with as many cords and cables that I have in a basket (because I was told we may need them at some point) you would think there would be at least one that would work to hook up my camera to the laptop. grrrr!

I thought I was so organized with this move.

***sigh***

***sigh***

* we have moved

* as of 1:00pm this afternoon, we no longer own a home

* Emma began her first day at her new school this morning

* there is furniture and boxes and stuff EVERYWHERE in this house

* I am NEVER moving again

* I have just now successfully installed our wireless internet


****sigh***

mmmm...the smell of brownies fills the air....

What could be better?

open windows...

curtains blowing in the crisp autumn breeze...

the smell of brownies filling the air.

Wait! Brownies? I'm not baking brownies....

a. I dislike cooking...I despise baking

b. even if I did bake (see above), everything in the kitchen is packed.

Where or where could the smell of brownies be coming from?

Oh!!

Cali seems to have found a way to entertain herself.

And from the way she darted out to her water bowl, I do not think she enjoyed her adventure.

7 years old!!!!!

and sporting new wheels!!

Happy Birthday, Emma Shea!

not quite wordless...

Last Wednesday...
Emma bounded out of bed at the crack of dawn...
ready to begin her new school year.

The 'first day of school' outfit was put on...
teeth and hair were brushed...
lunch box was packed...
first day of school letter was hidden...
and the school bag was loaded with supplies.

The clock clicked 8:20 as the sound of a passing school bus filled the air.
Hugs and kisses were given...
pictures in front of the magnolia bush were taken (for the last time)...
and with a wave good bye and a swoosh of the bus doors closing...
my baby girl started down the road towards her first day...
in the 2nd grade!

any takers...

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The inspection has been completed with no major fixes to be made.

The appraisal was conducted and exceeded the selling price.

The preliminary papers have been signed and the PENDING sign is in the yard.

The buyer's loan is in underwriting and signing on the dotted line is just around the corner!

mia...

Michaela has a summer project to complete by this evening (her mean mom's deadline), so I am sitting at the library listening to the sounds of noisy children as I use the free wi~fi. After becoming frustrated with the internet connection continually cutting on and off and the laptop opening 50 new tabs and then shutting down, I decided to just shut off the internet. We went ahead and ordered our new cell phones with 502 area codes, so canceling our CB account just seemed like the sensible thing to do.

And in theory, it was a practical decision. In reality...not so much!!!!!

It is amazing how much I rely on the internet throughout the day. No googling of information, no checking of bank statements or bills, no movies at 2 in the morning, and no access to my blog:( I realize I have lived more of my life without the internet than I have with it; that I found phone numbers and information by using phone books and reference books for several decades, but the internet has made trips to the library for reference materials obsolete and has spoiled me with the convenience and ease of typing in a few words and having pages and pages of information to scan through.

Ahhh...the simple life! Boy do I miss the convenience!

So, until our house sells, I will be enjoying a nice ice cold Dr. Pepper every day as I sit at McDonalds... and take advantage of the free wi~fi they provide!

Cuz' the eye twitching and nervous tics from internet withdrawals are becoming unbearable:)

that's a big number...

Today is Stephen's birthday!

Of course we spent it apart...him in OC, us 'up north'...

but as soon as he was awake, we called to wish him a happy day.

Emma was appalled that he was working on his car "ON HIS BIRTHDAY"...

and then informed him, "Wow!!!! 29 IS A VERY BIG NUMBER!!"

Yes Emma, 29 is a very big number...

and 44, his true age, is an even BIGGER one!!!!They say the memory is the first thing to go!!!

upon the first day of the week...

"Behold, God is my salvation, I will trust and not be afraid;
For the LORD GOD is my strength and song,
And He has become my salvation."
Isaiah 12:2

problem...

Internet...or computer...is having issues.

It keeps shutting down or booting me off.

Which is slightly frustrating. Not to mention time consuming.

I am going to go to the library tomorrow and check to see which is the problem!


Good thing my computer geek, i mean husband, is coming home tomorrow night!

why didn't anyone warn us??!! ...pt.1

Over the last several months, I have had various conversations with friends about parenting. We have talked about the joys our children have brought us and also about what our lives would be like if we had not taken on the role of parent (more time, more money, less stress, less love). These conversations, along with comments recently made to Michaela, have had me thinking about myself as a parent~~~ a lot. And after much self evaluation, I have come to a conclusion.

Sometimes....I hate being a parent!

And while I do not enjoy the bickering and arguing or the attitude and disdain, the dislike does not stem from these behaviors. My feelings of disdain comes from the magnitude of responsibility that raising children entails! We, as parents, have been entrusted with the nurturing, educating, disciplining, and spiritual and emotional well~being of these little souls. We, as mommy and daddy, are responsible for forming their knowledge base and value system from infancy! We, as mom and dad, create the foundation for what they will make of themselves as the grow and mature!

And...the responsibility is frightening!

Doubt, second guessing, and regret often follow decisions. Discipline often ends with "What ifs." and "I shouldn't haves." We continually question "Am I being too strict?", "Am I pushing too hard?", or "Do I expect too much?" as we make choices or give encouragement. Our task as parents is daunting. The ramifications of are choices, whether good or bad, will shape and mold the character of our children for the rest of their lives.

And that...is overwhelming!

Recently, Michaela was told that I......

not quite wordless wednesday...

I just realized I never posted pictures of Emma Shea in her dance recital.

Sadly, I got no good ones this year.

But we still have the memories of the CAROUSAL RIDERS and FEED THE BIRDS dance!

have patience with me...

It is amazing how much more I can get accomplished when I have a lot to do? I have always been more productive when I am working/taking classes full-time. I know that I only have a set amount of time to finish a task, so I get it done. When I am 'not doing anything' or working just a few hours a week, I tend to put jobs off. I think, " I have plenty of time to do that later!" and later turns into tomorrow...or next week. Time seems endless and responsibilities suffer.

I have been working on a post (actually several because my thoughts went on...and on) but I have procrastinated. Because I am only tutoring 16 hours this week, I felt like I had plenty of time. But somehow time rushes by and the day disappears. And after the girls go to bed, I am left with one thought...bed.

So as my Tuesday comes to a close, my posts are once again not completed.

Which means if I want to finish my writings, I either need to get focused and disciplined about my responsibilities... or go back to school full time:)

happy 4th of july,,,

MY COUNTRY TIS OF THEE

SWEET LAND OF LIBERTY

OF THEE I SING...

LAND WHERE MY FATHERS DIED

LAND OF THE PILGRIM'S PRIDE

FROM EVERY MOUNTAINSIDE

LET FREEDOM RING!!!!!

Our fathers' God, to thee,

author of liberty, to thee we sing;
long may our land be bright
with freedom's holy light;
protect us by thy might, great God, our King

HAPPY 4TH OF JULY!!!!!