Sunday, May 31, 2009

upon the first day of the week...

Today we gathered together with our brothers and sisters in Christ to sing songs of praise, to pray prayers of thanksgiving, and to partake of the Lord's Supper. We came together to worship the one true God; to edify one another; to build one another up.

Amidst the joys of being with fellow Christians was the sadness that came about from the list of those suffering. Members who lost loved ones; members who have relatives in the hospital struggling for their lives; planned surgeries; complications from surgeries; brain tumor rupturing. The list seemed endless.

As humans, our first response is to ask "Why?" "Why is there suffering? Why is sickness and sadness happening to such good people?" "God, why did you allow a 7 year old to have a brain tumor?" "Why? Why? Why?"

As Christians we must look beyond the "WHYs" We must remember that we are God's creation. God set life into motion and while His plan is not always clear to us, it is known to Him. HE is in control of all things. And while we may not understand 'Why' sickness and death occur, we must remember that “in all things God works for the good of those who love him” (Romans 8:28).

Life on earth is full of struggles and trials. We all will be faced with sadness from illness or the death of a loved one...

But, we can find comfort in our God.

..and be not grieved and for the joy of your Lord is your strength. {Neh.8:10}

He does not stray from us in our time of need.

3Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, 4who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves have received from God. 5For just as the sufferings of Christ flow over into our lives, so also through Christ our comfort overflows. 6If we are distressed, it is for your comfort and salvation; if we are comforted, it is for your comfort, which produces in you patient endurance of the same sufferings we suffer. 7 And our hope for you is firm, because we know that just as you share in our sufferings, so also you share in our comfort. {2 Corinthians 1:3-7}

He is always near to hear our prayers.

The Lord is close to those who are of a broken heart and saves such as as crushed with sorrow. {Psalm 34:18}

And while the pain and sadness may seem too much to bear, peace can be found in God.

Weeping may endure for a night, but joy comes in the morning. {Psalm 30:5b}
Yes, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for you are with me; your rod and your staff they comfort me. {Psalm 23:4}

And if we follow the commands of the Lord, we have the hope of an eternal life in heaven where suffering and death will be no more.

and he shall wipe away every tear from their eyes; and death shall be no more; neither shall there be mourning, nor crying, nor pain, any more: the first things are passed away. {Revelation 21:4}

So on this first day of the week, let us humble ourselves in the sight of the Lord, offering up prayers to our heavenly Father for the comfort of those suffering, peace for the loved ones, and contentment for all in knowing that God is in control.

Friday, May 29, 2009

friday frivolity...

Emma's Field Day was today.She was sooooooo excited about the fun she was going to have~~~she bounced everywhere while we tried to get ready this morning.

The weather was beautiful~~a pleasant change from the incessant rainstorms we have been having.

There were sack races (which I had pictures of but my camera seems to have deleted them~~lesson learned, keep camera battery charged!), softball throws, basketball, bowling, races, hoola hoops.....
The activities were endless.

The kids had a great time!!!
I seriously give up!!!

I just took pics of Emma (I would take some of Michaela, but she is in her room~~and no it was not her decision to go there.)

I came in to upload them....

I did not realize the program had started

Yes Steve, I realize there is a proper way to disconnect external 'thingys' from the computer.

The pictures are gone.

And I had some cute ones!!!

Maybe I should just give up trying to take pictures...
While Emma and I were outside, two ladies walked over to our back yard.

I am always leery of neighbors coming up to me~~after my previous experience, I never know what their intentions are.

One of them started talking.

they just wanted to introduce themselves...

and I would love to tell you there names...

but after the, "We are M's moms. We just wanted to say hi."...

I couldn't tell you what was said!

There's a fun conversation I am going to have with Emma whenever she asks if she can go play at M's house!!!
Is there early retirement for mommies?

If so, I am applying for it!!

Thursday, May 28, 2009

enough is enough....

rain rain
go away

come again some other day


the weeds are taking over the landscaping...
...there is a mushroom colony growing around my dogwood tree.
or there was when I started this post. I just went out to take a picture and they are gone????

and we need to 'weed and feed' because there seems to be more clover than grass.

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

wordless and mostly wordless wednesday...

mostly wordless wednesday

The date: around 1936
The cool ride: a Harley Davidson
The handsome man: my grandpa (18 years old)

Of all the pictures of generations past I have displayed, this picture of my Dad's father always gets the most comments!

And can you blame them...

i 'heart' faces

click on the button to see more i 'heart' faces entries

This weeks theme: Silhouette
sil⋅hou⋅ette [sil-oo-et] –noun,
1. a two-dimensional representation of the outline of an object, as a cutout or configurational drawing, uniformly filled in with black, esp. a black-paper, miniature cutout of the outlines of a famous person's face.
2. a dark image outlined against a lighter background.

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

when is the line crossed?...

Recently Michaela and I butted heads.

this is no surprise~~she is just like me!!

She decided she did not want to participate in an activity but could not give me a reason.

All I got from her was, " I don't know. I just don't want to."

This was not acceptable to me.

I knew the reason~~she was intimidated and afraid of failure.

She would not say it.

We had words. We had tears. We took a break.

It was during this break that Steve told me I was pushing too hard.

And he was right to some extent.

But I know what it is like to lack self confidence and to avoid situations where I may fail or I am not in control.

And I do not want Michaela to go through her life missing out because of a fear of failure.

So I push...

too hard sometimes? Definitely!

But always out of love.

Upon her return, I told her I didn't 't care if she chose not to participate, but that I needed an acceptable reason.

"I don't know." was not acceptable.

After some more conversation, she finally admitted her fears and said she would try~out.

We hugged.

She thanked me.

This was a horrifically~fantastic parenting moment.

One that allowed me to grow as a parent.

Parenting is hard.

Have you heard me say that a time or two, or twenty, before?

It is a balancing act~~with perpetual adjustments needed..

We are constantly trying to find the perfect balance.

~~we strive to give without teaching selfishness and greed by giving too much...

~~we seek to discipline without bringing our children to wrath...

~~we aim to create boundaries while still allowing for choices...

~~we make every attempt to nurture independence without providing too much freedom...

~~we endeavor to give encouragement without pushing too hard.

We are continually trying NOT to cross the line between being a loving, supportive parent and being an overbearing, dominating one.

And sometimes we fail.

Sometimes the line is crossed...

Sometimes the line has to be moved...

But, we learn from our mistakes...

and we learn from our successes.

We regain our balance...

and we start again!

It's not only children who grow. Parents do too. As much as we watch to see what our children do with their lives, they are watching us to see what we do with ours. I can't tell my children to reach for the sun. All I can do is reach for it, myself. ~Joyce Maynard

Monday, May 25, 2009

remember those who have fallen... thank those who have fought...pray for those still fighting...

Today is a day set aside to remember...

And while you may not agree with the war...

support the warrior!

And while you may not understand the soldier...

respect the sacrifices being made.

And while you may question the validity of this war...

know that good is being accomplished!

The men and women in our Armed Forces know the risks that may face them when they enlist...

Their desire is to protect the freedoms we are blessed with...

They have given their lives so that others may have the same freedom.

So whether or not you agree with the war, respect the warrior!
To all the men and women that are serving...

We thank you!!!

To all our friends that are currently in the sandbox, and to those that are preparing to deploy, you and your families are in our prayers.

You are HEROS.

Sunday, May 24, 2009

upon the first day of the week....

Isaiah 53
Messianic Prophecy regarding the crucifixion of Christ
~~Our perfect sacrifice~~

1 Who has believed what he has heard from us? And to whom has the arm of the Lord been revealed?2 For he grew up before him like a young plant,and like a root out of dry ground;he had no form or majesty that we should look at him,and no beauty that we should desire him.3 He was despised and rejected by men;a man of sorrows, and acquainted with grief;and as one from whom men hide their faces he was despised, and we esteemed him not.
4 Surely he has borne our griefs and carried our sorrows;yet we esteemed him stricken,smitten by God, and afflicted.5 But he was wounded for our transgressions;he was crushed for our iniquities;upon him was the chastisement that brought us peace,and with his stripes we are healed.6 All we like sheep have gone astray;we have turned—every one—to his own way;and the Lord has laid on him the iniquity of us all.
7 He was oppressed, and he was afflicted,yet he opened not his mouth;like a lamb that is led to the slaughter,and like a sheep that before its shearers is silent,so he opened not his mouth.8 By oppression and judgment he was taken away;and as for his generation, who considered that he was cut off out of the land of the living,stricken for the transgression of my people?9 And they made his grave with the wicked and with a rich man in his death,although he had done no violence,and there was no deceit in his mouth.
10 Yet it was the will of the Lord to crush him;he has put him to grief;
when his soul makes an offering for guilt,he shall see his offspring; he shall prolong his days;the will of the Lord shall prosper in his hand.11 Out of the anguish of his soul he shall see and be satisfied;by his knowledge shall the righteous one, my servant,make many to be accounted righteous,and he shall bear their iniquities.12 Therefore I will divide him a portion with the many, and he shall divide the spoil with the strong, because he poured out his soul to death and was numbered with the transgressors;yet he bore the sin of many,and makes intercession for the transgressors.

Saturday, May 23, 2009

willpower+desire= motivation

Another unproductive Saturday....

Michaela is at Lake Cumberland for the weekend with friends from church...

She had a mental health day yesterday and I drove her to Carrollton to meet up with Cari.

She is having a great time 4 wheeling and swimming.

She will be home tomorrow or Monday.

Steve is Manager on Duty today...

He worked last night~~and he is exhausted.

He will come home and sleep a few hours and go back to work tonight.

Luckily he is off Monday so he can get some sleep~~and finish the W.C.!!

Emma was feeling left out...

"I never get to go anywhere."

"I don't have any friends."

"It's just you and me. Its always just you and me."

"Michaela ALWAYS gets to go somewhere and I NEVER do!"

So today she went to work with her Daddy.

I received a call about 1:00...

The residents love her....

She ate lunch and GOT ICE CREAM with Chocolate sauce...

She was on her way to the 'bus' to take a trip with Ms. Carol and some of the residents...

She was eating up the 'grandparent' love being showered on her!

I have had the house to myself all day...

and I had every intention of being productive...

My "to do" list is still un~checked...

The laundry is still piled up...

The kitchen floor still needs scrubbed...

Why do today what you can put off until tomorrow!!!

the rest of the story day...

Michaela called.

I got about a 30 second conversation out of her before she said they were off to some new adventure.

She is having a great time at the lake.
Emma is home after a great day with her Daddy.

I was able to get a 30 second conversation with her before she asked if she could go next door and play.

She is now doing her two favorite things together~~jumping on the trampoline AND playing in the water.
Steve is home from his day as manager.

I was able to get about a 30 second conversation out of him before he said he was going to bed.

He is now in the basements~~Michaela'a room~~sleeping.

**I do not want to turn the air on yet, so it is slightly warm in the house~~ 80* on the main floor and about 87* upstairs. Mac's room is a cool 70*!!!
Cali went outside to enjoy a drink from the hose.

**a brand new hose that somehow has a hole in it after the guys who delivered our tree used it???

I wish her conversation (i.e. barking) was limited to 30 seconds.

She is now in her cage because she is WET!
I managed to write a grocery list for the next two weeks meals..

Steve informed me the list does no good unless I actually go to the grocery store and buy the food!!


I put the sprinkler on some new bushes we planted.

WOW!! What productivity:(

Friday, May 22, 2009

monday, tuesday, happy days....

It is 3:40am Saturday morning, and I have finally decided to give up studying Biology and go to sleep!

One can only take so much of parts of the heart, names of veins and arteries, and tracing the route of blood throughout the body!

Biology is my online class so all the information is listed on Blackboard.

We are given supplemental information and activities~~to broaden our learning experience:)

One never knows what type of information Ms.Rolfsen will share with us

I WAS NOT prepared for this link to uTube!!!

I actually laughed after hours of studying!!!!

***Those of you born in the last 2 decades may not know who this is singing:)

Thursday, May 21, 2009

why do i need to know this???

Answer in simplest terms.

1). 1.5(review) + 1.5 (test) + 3 (chemistry) =

unit is hours.

= one fried brain!

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

almost.....wordless wednesday...

Michaela~~Kindergarten, 2001

me~~Kindergarten, 1974

Emma Shea, Kindergarten, 2008

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

everything i need to know i learned on a tuesday...

I learned...
that no matter how much you think you understand ionic bonds, covalent compounds, electron configuration, and the octet rule in class while your instructor is explaining the concepts, they become clear as mud when you get home.

I learned...
that if you go into Chipotle and ask for soft tacos with ONLY tomato salsa, cheese, and a little sour cream on them, the workers will talk about you in Spanish (boy do I wish I was bi-lingual) and the lady at the register will hold up the line asking the man who made them what was on them over and over and over. Repeating "No meat???" to you as if the answer is going to change.

I learned...
that if you pull up to a drive~thru and the young man inside comes on the intercom and says, "Would you like a large Pepsi today?" before you can speak means that you probably order a large Pepsi (with extra ice) a little too often at Skyline!

I learned...
that as you get old(er) you refer to 20 somethings as young men!

I learned...
that even when you do not see someone very often, you are still saddened to hear they are planning to move away from the area:(

I learned...
that even when you have the best intentions for your child, they will not always see it in the beginning.
~~nor will your husband who says you are 'pushing the child'.

Monday, May 18, 2009

Sunday, May 17, 2009

upon the first day of the week....

His Steadfast Love Endures Forever
A Psalm for giving thanks.

Psalm 100:
Make a joyful noise unto the Lord, all ye lands.

Serve the Lord with gladness: come before his presence with singing.

Know ye that the Lord he is God: it is he that hath made us, and not we ourselves; we are his people, and the sheep of his pasture.

Enter into his gates with thanksgiving, and into his courts with praise: be thankful unto him, and bless his name.

For the Lord is good; his mercy is everlasting; and his truth endureth to all generations

Saturday, May 16, 2009

nuttin' much happening here....

Today was the best kind of Saturday~~no rushing around, no pressing engagements, nothing that HAD to be done...

Emma and I slept in...

Steve came home from his night job at 6:30am and went to sleep.

Michaela stayed in La Grange for the weekend...

It rained...

Emma watched Peter Pan...

I went and bought tickets for the girls' dance recitals ( not on the same night of course!!)

We ate lunch...

It rained...

I studied crammed for my Biology test...

Steve started laying the hardwood flooring in the W.C. downstairs...
I took my Biology test (and made my first grade below a 95 in the class. UGH!!! Luckily the lowest grade is dropped~~so my 80 should disappear!!!)

It stopped raining ~~Emma played outside

I helped Steve with the floor...Steve got ready to go back to his night job...

Emma got in the bathtub...

I took pictures of this great flower I bought yesterday~~specifically for taking pictures of:)...
Steve went to work...

Emma went to bed...

I threw in a load of clothes...

and worked on my Bible lesson for tomorrow...

And now I am in bed~~~hoping to be asleep before 2:00am for a change!

I love a lazy Saturday!!!

Friday, May 15, 2009

friday frivolity...

It's been awhile since I have done a Friday ramble...

*** I think we have FINALLY finished planting in the front of the house...and by WE I mean~~I select, purchase, and decide on placement and Stephen does the manual labor. It's a good process!!! Good for me anyways!!!

*** I do still have to buy more mulch~~~the 20 bags I have carried, opened, and spread were not quite enough. The mulch I bought supposedly has a natural weedkiller in it. I think someone forgot to tell the weeds!

*** Emma Shea had a birthday party for a boy in her class~~at every parent's favorite place, Chuckie Cheese!
Thankfully it was at 4:00pm so the noise level was not as out of control as it usually is!!

***Michaela is at the Florida College Booster Club lock in tonight in La Grange. She had lost the privilege two weeks ago, but I have felt so guilty about taking away a good Christian activity that I gave the privilege back on Wednesday. Of course now I feel guilty about not being consistent with the discipline!!! I think hearing her friends at church talk about it for the last two weeks and knowing she was not going was probably punishment enough.

*** Steve got the privilege of driving Michaela to La Grange. I told him driving two hours round trip was far less torturous than 2 hours of the singing mouse and dozens of screaming children!!

*** Vanessa and Billy, thank you for your hard work and I hope you get some sleep tomorrow after spending the night 'locked in ' with all of those teenagers!!!!

*** I watched the season finale of Grey's Anatomy this morning. I was expecting to be disappointed with the storyline~~you figure after so many years the creativity is going to suffer~~but boy was I pleasantly surprised!! It was fantastic. I hate that I have to wait until next season to find out what happens~~I do not like NOT KNOWING! I am the person that snoops for presents and opens them if I find them. 3 months of not knowing is just plain torture!

*** Steve just left for his second job, Emma is downstairs watching a movie, Cali is in her bed so I should take advantage of the calm and study my Biology, OR Chemistry, OR Algebra....
but I will probably go to my room, take a shower, read some blogs, and then read my Anita Shreve book.

*** Hope you have have a good Friday.

Thursday, May 14, 2009


Why, when our children are young, do we long for the day that they can talk, and then when they are 5 wish they would just shut up stop talking for 5 minutes.

Why, while in the midst of our work week, do we wish the hours would fly by, and then when we look in the mirror wonder where the years have gone.

Why, when our children are young, do we push them towards being independent, and then when they are 12 wish that they needed us more.

Why, when we are young, do we fight the naps that we are told we have to take, and then when we are adults wish that someone would tell us to go lie down in the middle of the day.

Wednesday, May 13, 2009


It has been 9 days since I started feeling bad.

I still do not feel great.

I finally took some medicine tonight.

And now I have "medicine~head"

I can barely keep my eyes open.

See you tomorrow

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

your such a pig....

This school term I am taking Chemistry, Algebra, and Biology.
An abundance of fun times!
My Biology class is an online class...

which I love~~setting my own schedule and being able to do the work at home.

But...there are some things that should NOT be attempted in the comfort of your home.

Like dissecting a fetal pig.

So today I had to go to the Harrison campus to meet my little piggy friend and spend three uninterrupted hours getting to know him~~inside and out.

Quite literally!!

I could have certainly come up with something to do that was less gruesome than cutting into piggy flesh for three hours.

But on the bright side...

at least it was a fetal pig and not a cadaver!!!!

what once was lost....

Back in January....

Yes, 4 months ago.

My husband came home and nonchalantly informed me that he had lost his wedding ring at the base.

After 4 months of vehicles parking in the parking lot, an abundance of snowstorms and many plow trucks going through this past winter, and the torrential rainstorms we have had this spring, I was fairly certain the ring was lost forever.

this is one time I am HAPPY to have been wrong.What once was lost, has been found.....


Monday, May 11, 2009

a treasure among the trash...

A few minutes ago, as I was straightening up the kitchen, I began going through Emma's mountain of papers from school.

Because for some odd reason, the papers that GO INTO the trash STAY IN the trash when they are thrown away late at night.

As I was admiring all of the papers throwing away newsletters and worksheets, I came across a mother's day card Emma made at school.

Emma Shea was so impresses by it, she never mentioned it to me.

The inside was covered by a 'flower' made with Emma's hand and fingerprints.

There was a poem:
I am like a flower
That's raised with love by you.
You help me grow up big and strong.
Mom, thanks for all you do!
And then there were 8 sentences Emma completed about me.
1. My mother is 18 years old.
Yes, I started my family VERY young.
2. She likes to play with me.
I am glad she thinks that. I feel like I am always telling her, "Wait. In just a minute." and then never getting there.
3. My mother hugs me when I go to bed.
And every chance she lets me steal one from her.
4. She is unhappy with me when I be mean to my sister.
Um, yes I am.
5. If I had $1,000,000 I would buy her a diamond ring.
That would be SOME ring!
6. The thing she does best is kiss me.
What NOT cooking????
7. My mother wants me to be a horse rider when I grow up.
Never once have I said this. Emma tells us she is going to be a rock star horse rider when she grows up.
8. I love my mother because she is the best.
Thank you!!
What a treasure in the midst of all the trash~~~ Oops, I mean school papers.

Sunday, May 10, 2009

the best day of my life....

After five years of fertility medicines, doctors poking and prodding, and various medical procedures....

August 14, 1996 wiped away the years of disappointment, frustration, and sadness.

August 14, 1996 became the best day of my life.

As I held my new daughter in my arms and prayed a prayer of thanks to God for allowing me the privilege of this precious child, I was filled with a love that I never knew existed....

a love that knows no bounds...

a love that is all encompassing and never ending...

a love that can only be known when you become, "Mommy".

As my precious daughter grew, so did the love in my heart.

I could not imagine sharing that love.

I could not imagine loving another as much as I loved the sweet child that had stolen my heart.

But the love that encompasses the heart of a mommy is a love that expands...

it is a love that has no limits.

On September 2, 2003, my heart was filled with more love than I knew was possible...

a new love enveloped my heart...

and I sent prayers to my heavenly Father thanking Him for entrusting me with the precious life I had just been given...

as I became "Mommy" to another beautiful daughter.

September 2, 2003 was the best day of my life.

And this beautiful Sunday morning, as I awakened to the sounds of my two beautiful daughters wishing me a Happy Mother's Day...

I once again lifted a prayer to my God...

thanking Him for allowing me the privilege of knowing these two beautiful souls...

thanking Him for allowing me the privilege of being loved by these two innocent hearts...

thanking Him for allowing me to the privilege of loving these two beautiful girls...

thanking Him for allowing me to be their "Mommy".
Happy Mother's Day!!

Saturday, May 09, 2009

the life of a princess....

Since it FINALLY stopped doing this.....
Steve, Michaela and I took advantage of the sunshine
and worked outside.
Steve and I planted and mulched.
Michaela mowed the neighbor's yard.

and Emma......
she took advantage of the sunshine too.

She caught some rays!!!!

Oh, the life of a princess!!!!

Cali thought she was there to use as a playtoy!!!

Thursday, May 07, 2009

i think i will live...

It is 7:40 am....

and the fact that I am up, showered, and dressed is a sure sign that I am sick:)

I think the worst is over...

I was able to get up and shower without the world spinning around me.

The simple act of walking to the bathroom wore me out...

but after sitting down for a few minutes I am ready to get Emma up for school.

Progress made!!!

I am so thankful I do not get sick very often...

but I guess the few times I do, I gotta' make it good!!!!

Tuesday, May 05, 2009

may 5

Because I have been in bed as much as Mommyhood allowed...

I forgot that today is cinco de mayo...

so before the day is over....

Happy Cinco de Mayo.

I hope you ate lots of yummy Mexican food!

Monday, May 04, 2009

i'm sick.....

I have not been sick since September, 2008....

~~coincidentally this was the first time I had been back to Kentucky in two years

~~~I think Kentucky makes me sick!!!

I ache...

I cannot breathe....

my throat hurts.....

I have a fever of 101.5...

I have the chills even though I am wearing fleece pants, a sweatshirt, and lying under a quilt...

I just want to die take something to knock me out until this passes!!!

I told Steve I think I have the 'man flu'...

because NO ONE has ever felt as bad as I do:)

Sunday, May 03, 2009

upon the first day of the week....

"Blessings crown the head of the righteous.”
Proverbs 10:6
When upon life’s billows you are tempest tossed,
When you are discouraged, thinking all is lost,
Count your many blessings, name them one by one,
And it will surprise you what the Lord hath done.
Are you ever burdened with a load of care?
Does the cross seem heavy you are called to bear?
Count your many blessings, every doubt will fly,
And you will keep singing as the days go by.
When you look at others with their lands and gold,
Think that Christ has promised you His wealth untold;
Count your many blessings.
Wealth can never buy
Your reward in heaven, nor your home on high.
So, amid the conflict whether great or small,
Do not be discouraged, God is over all;
Count your many blessings, angels will attend,
Help and comfort give you to your journey’s end.
Count your blessings
name them one by one
Count your blessings
see what God has done.
Count your blessings
name them one by one.
Count your many blessings,
see what God hath done.
lyrics: Johnson Oatman Jr.
arrangement: Edwin O Excell

Saturday, May 02, 2009

extra, extra!! read all about it!!!!!

Did you hear?

Do you know the latest??


No one told you?????


Shout it from the rooftops!!!!!

Put it on the evening news!!!!!

Make it known throughout the land.....

Michaela made a 92 this term in her pre~algebra class!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

A 'B+'!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

a....B+ B+ B+ B+ B+ B+ B+ B+ B+ B+ B+ B+ B+ B+

and we couldn't be more proud!!!!!

{Click here to find out why a B in math is worthy of celebration}